Yesterday my dad would have turned 61, oh but he died in 1998 at 52.

I missed him very much all day and only today could I mention it.

I went to Whole Foods and wanted to buy two dozen tulips for 19.99. Then I thought, how about three cala lillies for 7.99. Then I thought, no flower is going to bring him back so just forget it. It's just old spending habits rearing their ugly heads.

I didn't even listen to Bob Dylan once all day, that seems the very least I could do.

What a pitiful daughter I am.