Another Way

Many thanks to my good friend Lara who sent me these steps via email that makes it very easy for CA residents to dash off a quick letter to their senators.

1. Copy the text below into memory (highlight the letter below, then Edit, Copy)

2. Open a browser window for each senator (see below for links):

3. Paste the text into the email (Edit, Paste)

4. Personalize the text as needed, then send the email.

5. Receive boundless gratitude from me!

Text of Letter :

I am a patient with lymphoma [or a caregiver, or loved one, of a person diagnosed with lymphoma.]

I am contacting you regarding a CMS ruling that will have a devastating effect on the survival of patients with lymphomas. The ruling is contained in CMS-1392-FC as it relates to Bexxar and Zevalin.

If this ruling is not reversed, patients in need will be denied access to a life saving therapy, and future patients will be denied access to Bexxar or Zevalin and similar targeted drugs.

Also as ASH (The American Society of Hematology) has written: the CMS ruling will have “a chilling effect on the development of future drugs and radiopharmaceuticals for treating other forms of cancer and other diseases.”

ACTION NEEDED

I respectfully request that you take all necessary actions to reverse CMS-1392-FC as it relates to Bexxar and Zevalin.

For background on the consequences of this ruling to patients, please see the Newsweek article of Nov 14: (http://www.newsweek.com/id/70301).

Sincerely,

Your Name
Address
City, State Zip


Quick Links to CA Senators:

Boxer, Barbara- (D - CA) Class III
112 HART SENATE OFFICE BUILDING WASHINGTON DC 20510
(202) 224-3553
Web Form

Feinstein, Dianne- (D - CA) Class I
331 HART SENATE OFFICE BUILDING WASHINGTON DC 20510
(202) 224-3841
Web Form

A Little Easier Than a Letter

I know that if I am even overwhelmed trying to compose a letter to my elected officials, those of you without the cancer are having a hard time too. My message board to the rescue!

Judy posted the following idea:

If each of you will send your comments to bdeparry@gmail.com, she will print them and get them to Washington. The more comments we have, the more impact we have – so I beg each of you to voice your concerns and to ask everyone you know to do likewise.

The email account is bdeparry@gmail.com.

Please write “CMS-1392-FC” in the subject line. Your message does not need to be long. Feel free to write whatever you wish, and if you aren’t certain what to write, simply copy and paste the following:

I respectfully request an immediate reversal of CMS-1392-FC as it relates to Bexxar and Zevalin.

Please sign your name and include your city and state.

Your information will not be shared with anyone else. It will only be used for the purposes of lobbying our politicians to reverse this ruling.

I have no idea who "bdeparry" is but thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!

Hopeless

I am often asked how exactly do I deal with all the cancer stuff?

It's a complex, yet simple answer: I simply do because what choice do I really have? Some days I do it more gracefully than others. This year's therapy sessions have certainly been helpful in managing the stress and fear. I don't really acknowledge the fear very often and even more rarely do I allow myself a full-on pity party.

But this Newsweek article, this piece of news that is worse than the NYT article I blogged about a few months ago? This makes me fall into a big heap of pitiful emotions.

I have a migraine and so I can't even let myself weep because it will hurt too much. Who are these people with the cavalier attitudes and all the power to make totally insane decisions that affect hundreds of thousands of people? "Diagnostic?" What? WTF? What are they talking about diagnostic?

It's upsetting enough that Stanford says "No one has given Bexxar twice" when I asked if I can get it again. Never mind that in Australia, I know for a fact, you can get it not once, not twice, but THREE times if you want it.

Now here, in the U.S., some people might not EVER get it. And where does that leave me? If you're 60 or 70 like most people who get follicular lymphoma, and you start on this journey of mine and get 10 or 20 years more from various treatments, well it's never enough but at least you started out 30 or 30 years ahead in the life cycle than me.

That's all I'm saying.

This is so UNFAIR!!! All of it! UNFAIR and WHY ME, why anyone but let me have one little moment on the record to say WHY ME. It just all makes me sick. I am so over asking my people to write a letter for me or donate to that. What difference does it make anyway?

re·prieve

-- noun --

a respite from impending punishment, as from execution of a sentence of death;
a warrant authorizing this;
any respite or temporary relief.


Today was the infamous follow-up appointment with Dr. Chen. Before I even asked, she offered to monitor the situation for now with scans on a three-month schedule, next one slightly delayed past Dec. 28 to Jan. 10th, so I can have a reprieve to enjoy the holidays free from the madness otherwise known as cancer.

She asked about the biopsy and I told her straight up how horribly the surgeon treated me. She was very dismayed. She said the surgeon's comments to me when I paged her over the weekend with that high fever were "inappropriate" and asked if I had called her office. I said, "No, you were gone, what was the point? My primary and I handled it via telephone."

She had the pathology slides sent to Stanford for verification and there was a slight adjustment to what Good Sam found, having to do with cell-type but it wasn't even an error I noticed. This just goes to show everyone I am not ACTUALLY a doctor, just a fairly educated patient, although lately, not so much. My reputation is resting on its laurels these days.

For those who care about the technical details, Good Sam classified me as grade 1 and historically I have been grade 2. This is different from staging which tells you how much cancer you have in your body. Grading refers to the behavior of the cancer cell. So when my doctor saw grade 1 on the path report, she thought that was odd and she was right. I am grade 2 as usual.

She did again introduce the dirty "T" word (I'll say it once and not again until I'm forced, transplant). She wants me to go talk to her best friend at Stanford who is in their transplant dept. I pretty much skirted the issue except to bring up the fact I know folks who have gotten them and are on life support after struggling with GVHD (graft vs. host disease). Sure the CANCER is gone but they can't BREATHE on their own anymore. Great. Sign me right up.

For all those suggesting alternative therapies, she greenlights acupuncture but hesitates on herbs. Fine by me, I can't stomach the herbs anyway. But I'm game to try acupuncture now.

That's it. For now, it's going to be out of sight, out of mind.
At least as far as I can help it.

Bring on the holiday season.
HO HO HO.

Laparoscopic Surgery Coming My Way

I met with a surgeon this morning and she is no Dr. Eisner, let's get that straight right off the bat. Dr. Eisner was my surgeon in Orange County who did my other biopsies. That man, he was a gift to the world. I hope he's retired now in France with his adorable French wife. He was an amazing surgeon and the most compassionate physician I have EVER come in contact with on this almost 7.5 year journey in cancerland. He will get an entire post of his own one day, I cannot sum him up in an introduction to this biopsy here and now.

Anyway she will do. Besides I am weary now and not as feisty as I used to be I guess. I didn't hate her enough to find someone else. I want to get the show on the road. Besides I'm too sick right now with this stupid head "cold" aka kick my ass to the curb for one week now.

She will go in laparoscopically at first and everyone reading this pray she can get those bad boys out this way. Do you know what laparoscopically means? It means she's going to slice into my groin via my BELLY BUTTON that's what it means.

This shit sucks ass and pardon my fucking French if you don't mind.

And if she can't? Because oh, there's my aorta and some nerves and some limited edition fatty tissues, well then she'll have to go in the "open" way which means I'll wake up with not just three useless (small, but useless) incisions but a fourth gaping one. Great and I'm allergic to every fucking pain pill on the fucking planet.

"What can you take then? Vicodin?"

"Well I have issues with that too but I'll have to deal with it."

"You can always just try Motrin."

Mwuahahahaha. Motrin.

Except starting now, no ibuprofren for my feverish migrainish sad self, nope because that messes with my blood clotting and none of that is going on around here pre-op. No way Jose.

Thanks for letting me vent. I'm really terrified, I don't recover "smoothly" from general anesthesia and it's way, way easier to be pissed off than feel my fear.

Imagine Peace




Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

-- John Lennon

I made my wish today after my oncologist told me that my cancer is probably back.

You make a wish too.

My Response to the Article

Highlights that I want to point out:

1. Zevalin is no longer being actively promoted and it was only FDA-approved in 2002. That is very discouraging and very telling. It takes so many years to get FDA approval and to know that oncologists are not using them diligently or not informed about them at all is extremely disturbing.

2. I am not the average patient and neither are the three profiled in this article! Most patients with low-grade lymphoma are seniors (although the younger set are being diagnosed more frequently, another post for another day) and they tend to see physicians as true authority figures not to be questioned. Furthermore they are not necessarily Internet-savvy and doing all the research that would fuel questioning of their oncologists.

3. Lastly I want to remind everyone that my own beloved oncologist did not recommend Bexxar for me -- she recommended traditional chemotherapeutic agents (Fludarabine and Cytoxan) for my last relapse. And even I was initally inclined to accept her proposal, so beaten down after 2.5 years of ill health. Luckily, apparently, she didn't bat an eye when I told her I wanted to go to Stanford and get Bexxar. She made it easy on me. But still. You read an article like this, and wonder, even my oncologist, who studied at Stanford and knows all about radioimmunotherapy and has one amazing success case in one patient (over 7 years post-Bexxar remission) -- even she did not reach for Bexxar for a patient with refractory low-grade lymphoma.

Now what are we going to do, what can we do to influence the system? How can we get Biogen Idec to stand behind Zevalin when doctors are hesitant to refer patients? Hello, there needs to be a better balance between the bottom line and the overall goal of patient survival. Honestly. I get so fired up about this and yet I feel so helpless. All I can do right now is post to my little corner of the web.

Actually I have one meager idea for now, on my insomniac brain and no coffee. Let's at least write the NYT and thank them for the article. It is really still a shock for me to see mainstream media coverage of my exact personal cause...not Hodgkins disease but actual low-grade non-Hodgkins lymphoma. To have radioiummunotherapy in particular addressed in that publication is a huge accomplishment.

Grateful and Lucky, Apparently -- a long post

A friend on the Stop NHL board posted this article from the NY Times. It is a five-minute read. It is a worthy investment.

July 14, 2007

Market Forces Cited in Lymphoma Drugs’ Disuse

The patients’ stories sound nearly impossible.

After an hourlong infusion, Linda Stephens, 58, has been cancer-free for seven years. Dan Wheeler, three years. Betsy de Parry, five years. Before treatment, all three had late-stage non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma, a cancer of the immune system, and a grim prognosis.

All three recovered after a single dose of Bexxar or Zevalin, both federally approved drugs for lymphoma. And all three can count themselves as lucky.

Not just because their cancers responded so well. But because they got the treatment at all.

Non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma is the fifth most common cancer in the United States, with 60,000 new cases and almost 20,000 deaths a year. But fewer than 2,000 patients received Bexxar or Zevalin last year, only about 10 percent of those who are suitable candidates for the drugs.

“Both Zevalin and Bexxar are very good products,” said Dr. Oliver W. Press, a professor at the University of Washington and chairman of the scientific advisory board of the Lymphoma Research Foundation. “It is astounding and disappointing” that they are used so little. The reasons that more patients don’t get these drugs reflect the market-driven forces that can distort medical decisions, Dr. Press and other experts on lymphoma treatment say. A result can be high costs but not necessarily the best care.

The drugs have not been clinically proven to prolong survival, compared with other therapies. But patients are more likely to respond to them than standard treatments, and trials to test whether the drugs do have a survival benefit are nearly complete.

Other, more thoroughly tested lymphoma drugs are preferred as first-line treatments. But doctors often repeatedly prescribe such drugs even after they have lost their effectiveness — and when Bexxar and Zevalin might work better.

One reason is that cancer doctors, or oncologists, have financial incentives to use drugs other than Bexxar and Zevalin, which they are not paid to administer. In addition, using either drug usually requires oncologists to coordinate treatment with academic hospitals, whom the doctors may view as competitors.

As a result, many doctors prescribe Bexxar and Zevalin only as a last resort, when they are unlikely to succeed because the cancer has advanced. “Oncologists use everything in their cupboard before they refer,” Dr. Press said. “At least half the patients who get referred to me have had at least 10 courses of treatment.”

While Bexxar and Zevalin help many patients, only a minority become cancer-free for many years. But clinical trials indicate that they are as good as or better than other treatments. When the drugs were approved, analysts expected they would be used widely.

But the drugs have run into an obstacle that so far has been impassable. Because they are radioactive, they are almost always administered in hospitals, not doctors’ offices. As a result, doctors are not paid by Medicare and private insurers for prescribing them, as they are when they give patients a more common treatment, chemotherapy.

In addition, most oncologists outside academic hospitals treat many different cancers and may be only vaguely familiar with the drugs, said Dr. Andrew D. Zelenetz, chief of the lymphoma service at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center. “There are a number of barriers,” Dr. Zelenetz said.

Dr. Press and Dr. Zelenetz acknowledge that they have their own financial incentives to support the drugs. Dr. Press has been paid to speak at medical education seminars sponsored by the makers of the drugs. Dr. Zelenetz has been paid when the companies sponsor clinical trials at Memorial Sloan-Kettering. But both said the money was a small part of their total income and had not colored their views.

Some patients say they would not have received Bexxar and Zevalin if they had not demanded them. Mr. Wheeler of Kalamazoo, Mich., said he received Bexxar in April 2004 only after insisting on it when his lymphoma recurred. “I told my local oncologist, I want Bexxar, you give me a referral,” Mr. Wheeler said. “I’ve been a real pain.”

Mr. Wheeler, whose lymphoma was diagnosed in 2000 and recurred in 2003, has been cancer-free since receiving Bexxar. His cancer was growing when he received the infusion. He thinks he would be dead by now if he had not received the drug.

Ms. Stephens feels similarly. She was diagnosed with lymphoma in December 1998, and chemotherapy proved both difficult and ineffective. By August 1999, her disease was spreading. “Every lymph node in my body was involved,” she said. She received Bexxar as part of a clinical trial in January 2000 and quickly began gaining strength. She has remained in remission since, she said.

Zevalin and Bexxar are the first in a new class of drugs called radioimmunotherapies. Essentially, they deliver radioactive particles directly to cancerous cells to kill them. Idec, now part of Biogen Idec, invented Zevalin. Corixa, a Seattle company bought by GlaxoSmithKline, developed Bexxar. Both drugs are very expensive, costing about $25,000 per treatment. But one dose is usually enough. The cost of the drugs is similar to a full four-month regimen of chemotherapy and Rituxan, another lymphoma treatment.

For decades, lymphoma has been treated with chemotherapy, drugs that attack cancer cells but that can have severe side effects. Alongside chemotherapy, most patients now get Rituxan. It was discovered by Idec, the same company that found Zevalin, and is marketed in the United States by Genentech.

The Food and Drug Administration approved Rituxan in 1997. Since then, the drug has become standard treatment for newly diagnosed lymphoma patients, based on clinical trials showing that it makes chemotherapy more effective.

Because lymphoma is relatively common, and Rituxan costs $20,000 for a typical course of treatment, it is the top-selling cancer drug worldwide, with sales in 2006 of $4 billion.

Doctors agree that Rituxan is an excellent drug with only minor side effects for most patients.

Still, the few head-to-head clinical trials that have been conducted show that Bexxar and Zevalin are as effective as Rituxan, if not better.

In a study published in The Journal of Clinical Oncology in 2002, the tumors in 80 percent of patients who received chemotherapy and Zevalin shrank, compared with 56 percent who received chemotherapy and Rituxan. Of patients who received Zevalin, 30 percent went into complete remission, compared with 16 percent who got Rituxan.

Dr. Antonio J. Grillo-López, who oversaw the development of Rituxan and Zevalin as the chief medical officer at Idec, thinks Zevalin is the more potent of the two. “The early- stage studies showed that in fact Zevalin was superior,” he said. Dr. Grillo-López retired from Idec in 2001 and said he no longer had any financial interest in either drug.

When it reviewed the clinical trials for Zevalin in 2001, the F.D.A. found that “as compared to the Rituxan therapy, Zevalin was associated with a superior overall response rate.” The F.D.A. noted that another study found that 58 percent of people who had failed Rituxan treatment showed some response to Zevalin. Bexxar has shown similar results.

The F.D.A. approved Zevalin in 2002 and Bexxar in 2003, in both cases for the treatment of slow-growing lymphoma that had failed previous treatments.

When regulators approved Zevalin, Wall Street analysts projected it would reach $100 million in sales in 2003. Merrill Lynch predicted it could eventually hit $500 million in sales — about 20,000 doses a year.

But Zevalin hit roadblocks immediately. Its five-figure price caused insurers to balk. Further, its radioactivity made some oncologists worry that it might prevent them from giving other treatments later.

Prescribing Zevalin also requires oncologists to coordinate care with the hospitals that administer it. To get either Zevalin or Bexxar, patients first receive a low-radiation diagnostic dose, then imaging scans, then a high-radiation therapeutic dose, which comes a week after the first dose. Over the next weeks the patient’s red and white blood cell counts must be monitored.

The back-and-forth makes the treatment complicated to oversee, said Dr. Joseph M. Connors, a lymphoma specialist in Vancouver, British Columbia. “The doctors looking after people tend to turn to tools that they themselves know how to use and are familiar with,” he said.

For most oncologists, infusions of chemotherapy, Rituxan and other drugs are still their primary source of income. Even so, oncologists might have felt bound to use Bexxar and Zevalin if the drugs had been proven to extend survival over older treatments, Dr. Connors said. While preapproval trials showed that the drugs shrank tumors more frequently than Rituxan and suggested patients would survive longer, the test groups were too small to prove it.

Dr. Connors said that Idec and Corixa should have designed their clinical trials to prove — not just suggest — that the drugs increased survival.

Two clinical trials meant to answer that question are under way, but their results have not been reported. Until they are, doctors will be reluctant to use Bexxar and Zevalin, Dr. Connors said. For now, the drugs remain niche products. Biogen Idec reported worldwide sales of $18 million for Zevalin last year. That was about 1,000 doses of Zevalin used commercially. Dr. Press reported that GlaxoSmithKline had sold about 600 doses of Bexxar last year.

Advocates for the drugs worry the companies may stop making them. Biogen Idec said in October that it might shed Zevalin. Although the company continues to manufacture the drug, it no longer actively promotes it. A spokeswoman for Biogen Idec said the company planned to keep making Zevalin and continued to offer technical support to doctors using it. GlaxoSmithKline said it expected to keep making Bexxar.

Patients who have benefited from Bexxar and Zevalin say they cannot understand why the drugs are not more widely used.

Ms. de Parry received Zevalin in 2002, when she was 52. She had already failed chemotherapy and Rituxan. But she responded quickly to the injection and has remained cancer-free. “It’s not that I believe that radioimmunotherapy is right for everybody,” she said. “I just think that patients, all patients, should know their options.”

Collections

What do you think of when you hear that word?

Some deadbeat without a job who runs up bills they know they can't pay? Or won't pay?

Well instead you could think of me and millions of people like me, who get cancer, go through treatments, feel like hell, maybe get better and maybe not and all the while keep binders full of bills and do their best.

And not only do their best but actually DO pay their bills; maybe slowly, but every month they dutifully give their money to the people who provided their health care.

And what do they get in return?

They get harrassing phone calls and letters on an almost-daily basis from collection agencies and their lovely employees because someone, somewhere at the behemoth organizations (such as HOSPITALS but I'm not pointing fingers here) made a "mistake" and sent a bill that is being paid ON TIME EVERY SINGLE MONTH, as agreed between said HOSPITAL and PATIENT to collections!

And said PATIENT becomes rather IMPATIENT at making yet another call to verify that YES it was a mistake and yes we are "taking care of it" (Hello BS) and gets the pleasure of calling back the collection agency again to have them tell her that they can't do anything about it, it's in collections and I need to pay them now.

(I couldn't sustain the 3rd person perspective any longer).

They are so ridiculous, I swear. My phone rings, I answer it and I get a computer voice telling me "Jessica. Nichols. Has. An. Important. Personal. Business. Matter. To. Discuss. Please. Call. Blah Blah Blah with Reference Number Blah Blah Blah" and then they hang up on me! So I call their blah blah blah number and go through voice mail hell to get to live human hell.

And around and around the crazy carousel I go.

I am now seven years, one month and one week into this world and cancer sucks in so many more ways than one.

Thinking Outside the Box

This article really cheered me up this morning. I love this kind of innovative thinking!

Million dollar prize aims to lure new cancer ideas

By Maggie Fox, Health and Science Editor1 hour, 30 minutes ago

Medical researchers teamed up with hedge fund managers on Wednesday to offer a new million-dollar prize for the best new idea for cancer research in the hopes of kick-starting innovative approaches.

They invited cancer experts, scientists and the general public to join an Internet-based club and compete for the Gotham Prize for Cancer Research.

Federal funding of cancer research has been flat, and is in fact lower than in recent years when inflation is taken into account, said Dr. Gary Curhan of Harvard Medical School.

And the system of seeking grants -- money to do research -- is based around pleasing either National Institutes of Health supervisors or gatekeepers at the advocacy organizations that pay for research on specific types of cancer, he said.

Curhan teamed up with hedge fund managers Joel Greenblatt and Robert Goldstein of private investment firm Gotham Capital to set up the prize club, found at http://www.gothamprize.org/.

"The goal here is to open up the site to people with ideas," Curhan told reporters in a telephone briefing.

"The winners of these prizes are not going to be those who are successful in evaluating the idea. It is going to be the person with the best idea."

Members post an essay or thesis outlining their ideas. Cancer researchers will be invited to peruse the ideas. At the end of the year cancer experts such as Dr. Bert Vogelstein of Johns Hopkins University, one of the best-known researchers in colon cancer and cancer genes, will judge the entries.

"I have seen firsthand how many ideas with incredible potential never reach fruition," Curhan said. "We will only make significant progress in cancer research by learning from each other's successes and mistakes, and by building on each other's knowledge."

People who want to make individual contributions to a particular researcher, as opposed to making a general donation to a charity, are also invited to look at the site.

Curhan stressed he does not believe the NIH is unimaginative in funding research.

"Most of the work is incremental just because of the long tradition and because people tend not to pick risks. And you tend to write grants to what you think will get funded as opposed to your most innovative idea," he said.

"If you want to study something that may be relatively rare, it is not going to be given the same priority as something that is more common such as breast cancer or prostate cancer."

The prize was launched at the Ira Sohn Investment Research Conference, a charity cancer event named after a trader who died of cancer at 29. A second, $250,000 prize will be offered for pediatric oncology.

Copyright © 2007 Reuters Limited. All rights reserved. Republication or redistribution of Reuters content is expressly prohibited without the prior written consent of Reuters. Reuters shall not be liable for any errors or delays in the content, or for any actions taken in reliance thereon.

All Clear

My PET scan was totally clear, still in a complete remission.

What a relief!

I feel confident about this remission but a week of waiting for results will play mental games on anyone and this round got me good. I didn't win the mental portion but it doesn't matter.

I hit my low yesterday when I dragged Jaden over there and begged for the results from the girls at the front desk. They denied me and I got to the hallway and crumpled in a heap of tears on the floor. Jaden thought I was crying about Opa and who knows what the little old lady who came out of the office and saw me thought. It must have been a sight, me outside of the oncologist's office crying on the floor with my little boy.

We went outside and sat in the sun and Jaden picked a yellow daisy for me after asking if it was okay to do that. Then he gave it to me and gently touched my face and said, "Mama I love you and I respect you." Which only got me crying more. Then we spent about 15 minutes watching a potato bug groove his way around the sidewalk.

But I digress. My CBC was also all normal, white count was just there at 4 but who cares. Neutrophils are still running low at 1.5 but again, who cares.

My beloved onc. is back to work and it was great to see her. She seemed really happy to see me too and told me at least three times that I look fabulous. Who wouldn't want to hear that?

Three months till my next exam, I haven't gone three months without a CBC in 25 months. This is great!

Also for all the fans out there, I weighed in at 103.7 today! Holy!

Trudi

Trudi, Trudi, Trudi,

I am not sure how you will ever read this but I hope you will. I am distraught hearing bad news about you. I can't take it. It's so unfair. I want you to get better and I want you to get better NOW. I feel like a 2 y.o. and I want to have a huge tantrum.

This is so out of control. I cannot believe you are going through this. I simply can't handle it. What is going on in this world that YOU of all people are getting hit so viciously by the beast? You are one of the most generous, positive, optimistic, beautiful people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.

If we weren't on complete opposite sides of this country, I would be there planting your Candy Mountain flowers for you.

GO TEAM!

Our beloved Becca, everyone knows our Becca, who even 1.5 years later has a park named in her honor, is training with TNT in *my* honor.



In WINTER no less and for a TRIATHLON.

People think I am inspirational for surviving cancer three times; well, I think that's nothing compared to swimming in the dead of winter and then getting on a bike and then, horror of horrors, running. Or whatever order they do these events, the point is, triathletes do all of them in the same day. Which will never happen to me in my lifetime.

Of course, we all know about never. Never say never. I am the one, after all, who got so damn inspired by Jamie & Jenni at the Nike Women's Marathon last year that I agreed to walk/run a half marathon with them this year.

(Did being a patient representative for the event influence me? Yes, but not nearly as much as seeing Jamie & Jenni cross the line, as well as my old & dear friend Lynora who has done the event twice now.)



I know I sent an email but blood cancers make me passionate and vocal and bold, so if you are reading this, click the link and donate to Becca's account.

I am still humbled by the $6000+ that I raised almost two years ago for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society through everyone's generosity. In my darkest times, it has lifted my spirits to know that with money comes research and with research, comes options for me and everyone else affected by lymphoma, leukemia and myeloma.

Thank you!