Friday Poems: Diane di Prima
/Three Years Old
/Do you ever have a tingling hunch that turns out to be right? This just happened to me about three minutes ago. I suddenly wondered when exactly in May did I start my blog?
It turns out that I began blogging on May 13, 2006 -- exactly three years ago.
I think a spontaneous celebration is in order, don't you?
Leave me a comment on this post by Friday, May 15th at 5 p.m. PST with a link to your very first blog post. If you don't have a blog, no worries. Enter a link to one of your favorite posts of mine -- the archives are right over there to your left. The winner will be chosen randomly by the Noodle out of a bike helmet. The gift? A 4x6 photo (of course) from my shop mounted by Plywerk.
Let my birthday party begin!
Happy Blog Birthday to me!
Swirly Designs
/Do you remember playing with these as a kid?
I did and when I saw this set at Restoration Hardware last Christmas, I indulged myself. Here is one set of swirlies (as I call them in my head) that I've made so far.
Of course the red, blue and green pens that came with the set just wouldn't do for me. So I set out on an expedition for better colors. You would be surprised how hard it is to find a) good colors in a pen that b) fits in those little holes. But I accomplished my mission at a local and adorable Japanese stationery store.
I have been a wee bit busy lately but this weekend I may have time for more swirly activities like this. You see I've planned a surprise weekend away with my husband! It's been a long time and the countdown is on. :)
(I am able to spoil the surprise just a bit on the old blog because I had to spoil it last week to prevent a working weekend instead.)
True Love
/I've been working on my expectations never always lately and especially yesterday on Mother's Day. Usually all that really matters to me is a card -- I love me some greeting cards. Most years, my boys have let me sleep in and then they surprised me with a bouquet of hand-picked wildflowers.
This year, all I really wanted was for my Noodle to treat me kindly as lately I'm the object of his anger for whatever reason. I didn't want a gift or to be waited on all day long. I had a mix this year -- I was very surprised with the gift of a massage and chauffeur service to and from the appointment. But my Noodle and I had several low moments from breakfast all the way through to dinner.
I am not here to post about that ick though. I'm here to share the beautiful card my husband made for me and how meaningful it was to me.
You see, I am not the most naturally playful mama you'll ever meet. I was not a very playful child either. I bought myself this red fairy a few months ago to remind me that there is a playful part of me buried inside. But then I forgot to play with my playful reminder fairy.
What makes this card so special is not even that I have never received a drawing from my husband in our almost-eight-year history (and this drawing amazes me so!) No, the card is special because of the thought behind it. He knew that this year I needed more than words. I needed to see that my playful spirit exists. Even on a hard day when it is buried in the Hudson River like a Mafia victim; along with my loving kindness.
That, dear friends, is true love.
Friday Poems
/Oftentimes, I will hear Andy Garcia's voice in my head reading this Pablo Neruda poem. It is from the soundtrack to Il Postino.
I used to own this cd but loaned it to someone years ago. I highly recommend it. It's almost like being on a plane to Italy. Hmmm...now come I never bought myself a replacement?
Sonnet XX
Pablo Neruda
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example, 'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.
And Then...
/It's hard not to be emotional on your child's birthday, at least for this mama. We've been through a lot over these years, and he's taught me more about myself than I ever really wanted to know. He's taught me how to love in a way that I never thought was possible. He's taught me about being an artist.
He's teaching me about forgiveness. He's teaching me to pay attention to the little things. He's teaching me that time doesn't slow down for anyone, so I need to try harder to grab every moment that I can.
He's challenged me, frustrated me, made me cry tears of joy, love, anger, sadness and worry. Six is a whole new thing -- a whole new section for clothing, a whole new vocabulary from school, a whole new level of independence.
So when he asks for extra snuggles at night or for an extra round of the sunshine song?
I'll be right there sweet boy.
Because just yesterday, he was born. I lost a lot of sleep and freedom and suddenly he was one. I spent the next two years chasing him around, keeping him safe from himself and dealing with tantrums the likes of which I had never heard of before. I woke up one day and he was four, rational, eloquent, the big kid at preschool. But before my heart could even recover, he was five and off to kindergarten. Of course that happened about five minutes ago in mama-time.
Five New Lands
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Bubblegum Dreams
/Blog Crush: Color Me Katie
/Do Re Mi at Central Station Antwerp (Belgium)
/This video has absolutely brought me to tears this morning. It is a dream of mine to participate in a mass form of beautiful communication such as this.
Friday Poems: The Fall
/I picked up a collection of poetry at the library this week, Word of Mouth, which is an anthology of work featured on NPR's All Things Considered.
Today I'm sharing something short (and I think sweet) by Russell Edson. Catherine Bowman, the editor of the book, tells us that Edson "thinks of poems as waking dreams, in that each poem is a moment of being fully conscious while tapping into the dream mind" and he believes "the shorter the work the more it can depend on symbol, metaphor and gesture. There is an exacting precision and logic in these waking dreams."
I learned that Edson's poems are almost always short and he writes exclusively in the prose poem form. Best of all for a girl like me? Edson says, "The world is a strange place and it helps to see yourself as a secret agent." I love it! Just ask my husband, "Who is the real secret agent in the house?"
The Fall
Russell Edson
Do you see this poem as sweet? ironic? biting? something else? I love work such as this because I see many layers stacked into one brief moment. (Note: I have a B.A. in English, so this is a fun activity for me.)
The Behavior of Birds
/"Have you ever observed the behaviour of birds in the face of adversity? For days and days they make their nests, sometimes gathering materials brought from far away. And when they have completed the nest and are ready to lay eggs, the weather, or the work of humans, or some animal destroys it, and it falls to the ground, all that they have done with so much effort.
Do they stop? Bewildered, and leave the work? No way....It hurts to go back to begin again...Even so, the birds do not ever stop, they continue to sing and build, and keep singing and building...
Do you sometimes get the feeling that your life, your work, your family is not what you had dreamed? Do you sometimes want to say "enough"... it is all too much for me!
Do not worry if you get injured in the battle, that is to be expected. Gather yourself together and rebuild your life, so that it runs well again...Life is a constant challenge, but it is worthwhile to mostly accept it. And never stop singing."
On My Desk
/Artist Profile: Kaypee Soh
/Playing Favorites
/Friday Poems: Absence of Fear
/Tonight, for this week's Friday Poems, I'd like to share the lyrics to an old Jewel song from her 1998 Spirit album. This song has always made me stop and pause when I hear it.
Heads Up: Etsy Day
/Earth Day Comes to a Font Near You
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SPRANQ, a Dutch creative communications firm, asked the deceptively simple question, "How much of a letter can be removed while maintaining readability?"
Apparently lots of coffee and hours later, they figured out that you can remove small circles and save up to 20% of your ink. Download it here for free.
Artist Profile: Jen Corace
/Jen Corace is the illustrator of one of our favorite children's books, Little Pea. I thought I had blogged about the book's author Amy Krouse Rosenthal* last fall, but it turns out I merely shared this amazing video with a couple of people by email.

The illustrations in this charming book are so whimsical and effective: they carry me away every time I read the book to the Noodle. I feel like rolling through life instead of walking with my feet.




















